What bothers me is I tend to be bothered by inconsequential situations. Being stuck in traffic bothers me. Driving in the car pool lane and being behind some idiot who's driving slower than vehicles traveling in the slow lane bothers me. Why are you in the car pool lane in the first place; just to bother me?
People who think I'm impressed by status, looks, designer clothes, your ugly SUV and your bank account; those types of people really bother me. People who are more concerned about what's on the outside than what's on the inside; that really bothers me. Why do you spend time and money fixing yourself physically when what you should be concentrating on is fixing yourself on the inside. You may look fantastic at first glance, but you're still ugly on the inside. Do you do that just to bother me? And why am I bothered by it in the first place?
Negativity bothers me. I'm bothered that we don't appreciate life more. I'm bothered that we take simple pleasures for granted. I'm bothered that I don't do enough to make other people happy. I'm bothered that I should do more to make a difference in life. I'm bothered that I tend to be insecure. I'm bothered that I don't tell people I care about how much they mean to me. I'm bothered when people I care about tell me how much I mean to them.
I'm bothered by a blister on the back of my foot that made it impossible for me to take my walk this morning. I'm bothered when I see mayonnaise on my sandwich when I specifically requested no mayonnaise. I'm bothered by how sour cream looks, smells and tastes. I'm bothered that I can't find jeans to fit me. Spending my time trying to figure out who the idiots are who decide how to size jeans and who they actually are meant to fit bothers me. I'm bothered that I'm incapable of staying angry or holding a grudge. I'm bothered by people who stay angry and hold grudges.
I'm bothered when I see moms yell at their kids. I'm bothered when parents are afraid to be parents and allow their spoiled little brat to control situations. I'm bothered that your kid is having a temper tantrum in public and you're too much of a wimp to take control. I'm bothered that parents try to "fix" everything for their kids. I'm bothered when parents fight their kids battles. I'm bothered by people who can abuse animals. I'm bothered that I have more empathy when it comes to abused animals, than I do for abused people.
What do I want? I want people to fight for what they believe in, but at the same time allow others to fight equally as hard without becoming defensive. I want your difference of opinion to either change my mind, or at least allow me to see things from another perspective; or solidly cement the conviction I currently have. I want to know how other people are feeling, why they feel that way, what makes them tick, why they make the choices they do.
I want to be around people who are vastly different from me; but intrinsically the same. I want people to allow me to think for myself. I want people to allow me to make mistakes. I want people to realize I will never do anything intentionally to hurt anyone.....well unless you deserve it. At the same time, I want people to think for themselves; no matter how strange it seems to me. I want to always appreciate every person in my life who has touched my heart and made a difference in my life.
Quoting Judge Smails in the movie classic "Caddyshack"....
"You'll get nothing and like it!"
